Today is my first day back to work. I have been out for about 4.5 months because Zoe was late. I knew it would be tough to go back, but I didn’t think it would be this hard! Seeing her smiles this morning was both wonderful and heartbreaking. I’m going to miss a lot of those smiles. And a bunch of other things, some I can’t even imagine yet. But I know she’s in good hands. And that she will make friends and that day care will be good for her.
These are the things I keep telling myself. I am able to work from home most of the time and I am so thankful for that. Once I have gotten back into things at work, I can go feed her at lunch if I like. I will be here when she gets home. I don’t have to spend about 3 hours a day away just commuting. And I can go get her if necessary.
Speaking of feeding her, I am still planning on breastfeeding, so I’ll be pumping during the day. I’ll share some of the ways I’m trying to protect my supply over the weekend. Babies are better than pumps, so it is possible to have a drop if you are pumping more.